Have you seen my brain….or my sanity?

October 26, 2009

I don’t know what it is about parenthood, but it has made me dumb. I mean, “forget your baby at MOPS” dumb. The woman you know now is not the woman I once was. Hopefully I am a much better version of her, but I am definitely a dumber version of her. There is little left of that brain that placed me in the top 5% of my graduating class at university. My pre-med, biology and chemistry obsessed brain has been replaced with a lot more common sense but also a lot more chaos. I am not sure if it is the chaos that has made me stupid or if that each time one of my children have left my body they have taken a piece of my brain with them. Probably a little of both.

Today I had to get one kid ready for school and two ready for MOPS. I also had to get myself ready for MOPS, make two entrees for MOPS, and return about 6 dishes to wonderful people who had brought us food over the last month. Needless to say, I was BUSY and my hands were extremely full when walking into the church this morning. I had a baby in a Moby, two bags full of dishes, 2 quiches, one crock pot with cheese, a diaper bag, my purse and an angry 3 year old. Arwyn had decided she was in a terrible mood and there were tantrums to be thrown! Each MOPS Monday, I have to leave a little early to pick Breckin up from school. So, when 11:20 rolled around I gathered my things with one thought it my mind, “Hurry to Breckin. Hurry to Breckin.” I started to walk out the door and suddenly realized I was not holding my newborn child. My mentor mom Susan was holding Judah and I nearly walked out the door without my child! I had completely forgotten about him. What kind of a mother does that?! I ran back for Judah and picked Arwyn up. I got halfway down the hall and realized I had forgotten the quiches and the crockpot. I went back to get them, now running late to get Breckin, and realized there was no way I could carry it all. I asked a friend for help and she was kind enough to do so. On our way out Arwyn started throwing a tantrum no more than 5 minutes after I picked her up. This tantrum lasted up the elevator and out to the car and all of the way home. I was certain my head was going to explode. All the while I was doing my best to choke back tears. The tantrum continued all of the way to Chik-Fil-A and finally stopped in the drive-thru. I realize that I had a lot on my plate this morning but at one point I truly felt like the dumbest woman on earth. I forgot the dishes that I had taken and my child! What a way to start a week. I have since thrown in the towel on Monday. The older kids are upstairs watching a movie and that might be where they stay until Jeremiah gets home. I am sitting downstairs with Judah and Bosley trying to pick up the pieces of my scattered brain.

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