Dear Breckin,

July 27, 2010

Six years ago this week, I woke in the middle of the night. My first thought was, “Wow, those fried pickles from Dixieland Cafe are not sitting well with me.” I thought I was sick. After about an hour, I realized, I was getting sick at regular intervals. Hmmmm…..could this be the day we meet? A few short hours later around 6am, there was no doubt we would be meeting you. Your Daddy and I went on a long walk in the Arkansas heat. We eventually made our way to the hospital. I will tell you more detail as you get older, but just know that your Dad was very nervous and hit about a million potholes on the way there. It’s comical now, but at the time, I was trying not to smack him. We got to the hospital around noon. After what felt like 12 million contractions and a little over an hour of pushing, you were born at 4:26pm.

Later that night, around 2-3am, I heard you stir in your bassinet, so I picked you up and just held you. The rest of the world melted away and it was just you and me. I suddenly knew what it was like to love someone so selflessly. I felt what it was like to be so overwhelmed by the responsibility of raising a child. I learned what it was like to have your heart fill with joy and melt simultaneously. I learned what it meant to suddenly have that “mother bear” instinct. I learned what it felt like to fiercely love someone you didn’t know very well. I learned and felt a lot in the moments that I sat there staring at you. It is a day I will never forget. It is the day you made me a Mommy. I love you so so much. Happy 6th Birthday, Sweet Boy!

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